21 (No Direction)

Being 21 is so weird; like I still feel 17 or 18. Okay, maybe the whole rebel attitude has died off a little, but for the most part I still feel like a teen (not a dumb one though). I can buy alcohol now, go to 18+ events, fucking take over the world if I wanted to. It's like every step that I was so excited to get over has passed. This is the age of no direction. It's not like I'm at Maplewood, complaining about how much I want to graduate. I think that's why people go to college, to feel like they have a direction. I kinda wish they gave the option to go back to school for another 2 years or so. Not college...because I wouldn't get it for free and don't want to spend 1000's on it. I guess I just miss school, the direction, the people (most of which I hated), fuck, I even miss the drama. My mind is hungry, work isn't feeding it, college wants too much for it. Will I starve?

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