Story Time

Today I woke up. I noticed that I was up on time. I got in the shower, then got out. When I got out I was still naked, so I put clothes on. Then I drove to work. THE END.

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Must not make a drunk update...

This is me.

I haven't made an update here, in well, a month... They will probably drizzle out like this now; an update every month or few weeks, but nothing meaningful. Maybe...just photos with text or something. I feel like closing off to everyone, completely.

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Moments Pass; Nothing is Accomplished

Today I was thinking a lot about reading. I think my life has been deprived of literature. Throughout high school it didn't really play a part, and if so, it just ended up being stuff the teacher found relevant to my life. I mean, I love to write...but I don't read? That doesn't really make much sense, now does it? So, for one of my cheesy 2011 goals, I want to read a book. I love poetry and want to check into that a little bit, because it's shorter and not as time consuming. I think it takes hours of reading to really be emersed in a book, and I don't really have hours. For now, I just bought Elliott Smith by Autumn de Wilde. It seemed to get good reviews, and I felt it would hold my interest because it's by one of my favorite singer-songwriters; Elliott Smith.





I can tell he really put his whole heart into his music.

Weekend Plans

I missed these guys the last time they toured with Alcest, so I think I'm going to see them on Saturday.

Hello blog
I'd love to speak to you
You always listen, but don't reply
You're here, but not really "here"
Just whatever is in my head

You're an outlet, maybe a metaphor
A place for philosophers and story tellers
For dead communication of the real world
Adoration for change

An assignment that I continue to fail
Time and time again


Oh well...At least good music will come out of these crappy moods.

Mr Nobody

I think I've watched this maybe...3 times now? It makes me think about life a lot, and making choices...making the "right" one. It's probably in my top ten favorite films now, so I'm bugging everyone to watch it.

Weekend

Sometimes it's easier to put my thoughts into music, without words.

http://www.mediafire.com/?v1u1q7v3cdcj3b0

Turn A Downward Spiral Into A Slide

"I've got nothing to say to you. I'm Mr. Nobody, a man who doesn't exist. "


A diagram of my thoughts, because they cannot be put into words lately...

This is what they have looked like for well over a month now. Sorry, to anyone that reads this. Why read it though? Unless one fancy's others complaints.. A spark came unto me a couple times while at work... "Oh, I should write a review on a movie I watched!" or write about Loop (a fairly new record store/ coffee shop in Cleveland) or maybe in some philosophical ramble, but it the end it resulted in me staring into a screen asking myself "why?". Why post? Why speak? Why anything? But in a state of total disconnection, what could be better than simply talking to yourself, even if in complaint? I just did, I guess...but I don't know... I can't stop thinking about the question "Why anything?".

On a lighter note; this bedtime tea is nice.

On a heavier note; I'm excited to
drive through all this snow today. (sarcasm)

You can't kick when you're down

UPDATE?! IMPOSSIBLE

*I was going to review Portlandia, but I just woke up...And kinda lost the want to do an extended review. Although I find some of the skits humorous, I think if it had more story and developing friendships it would be better. 7/10*

Next, I've figured out the best time to get online is early in the morning. For some reason my internet loads twice as fast now (YAY!) but it's still loading for the most part...slow...

Next, after hearing the hype about Bulletstorm and watching trailers and demos of it I'm pretty tempted to get it. I love humor, gore and futuristic themes, so I think they have it well packed in there. It also looks intense as fuck, making me want it even more.

Aside from that, my friend found a pretty funny parody video of Call of Duty called Duty Calls, ripping on the first person shooters out nowadays. It's sadly true, and probably the reason the FPS bore me after 20 minutes.




I'm also screwing around with photoshop a lot trying to come up with more appealing ways of editing my pics. That, and I found my Gameboy Color with Mario from 1989 stuck in it. Shits real fucking intense.

I'm On Standby

So, hopefully this whole internet issue will be resolved by Monday.

I tried to do a speed test, but my internet disconnected the first few times doing it. Fail?

No Call

So they didn't call...This is too frustrating...

Deal With It

Horrible internet today...Some technician came by when I was at work today, checked our router, wiring, EVERYTHING. He came up with the conclusion that all the problems we are experiencing are from the server that runs our area. That means anyone with Time Warner in this area is having internet problems...We are all getting lied to about the service we are getting. We are getting money docked off each internet bill but it still isn't good enough. We should have decent internet at least. I think we could probably sue the company over this with them lying about service, receiving constant complaints from this area and still refusing to fix to problem. My dad will be getting a call tomorrow from someone higher up. Maybe we can get them to fix this problem once and for all...

Independent Media Future? I Hope

When Arcade Fire's The Suberbs won the grammy for "Album Of The Year" and nominations in the awards ceremony that included the likes of Florenced and the Machine, Broken Bells and Mumford & Sons. Strange that a band not many people even listen to, and on an indie label like Arcade Fire would win a grammy, but it happened. Very suprised that it won, even when put up against pop and rap and commercial rock bands and artists that usually dominated the music industry.

Are we at a changing point? Not with just music, but with film industry too. Just look at how large of an impact internet media plays on our lives, even helping it into mainstream eyes, such as the homeless man who became a sensation over a short Youtube video or maybe a band getting big with the help of social networking sites.

It seems as if the independency of the internet is influencing the music, film and shows we watch. I can see a future with Youtube and Netflix merged into an open pool of media. The ability for anyone to create shows and watch them over a very internet based sorce. Think of there being 100's of independent digital radio stations and not with the intentions of playing the same Lil Wayne song all day, but to actually get people into new music, give people that true variety, that I could very well start if I wanted to. "The growing number of public radio listeners speaks to the hunger for independent local media sources" said National Public Radio president Vivian Schiller. People are tired of having the music they listen to, shows they watch and movies they want to view all shoved down their throat. We want choice, many options, maybe local; thus a very independent based media. I just wonder how copyright and freedom of speech will play in this, but it's nice to dream about. Got a little off topic, maybe not the best written blog post, but you get the idea and I'm sure excited to see an independent media future due to the growth of technology, and desires of the public. Maybe with more options will come the ability for people to grow as more of individuals.

The People's Key

There it is, the new Bright Eyes record. Something just pushed me to drive all the way to Canton for no reason other than to find movies at the Exchange. It was there that I found this, and for the $22 I spent to get it, I'd say it's worth it. I have it playing right now. Now all I need is some alcohol and I think I have a great night alone ahead of me.

Weird how something as simple as buying a record could put me in a good mood, but it did.

Also, I'm happy to hear that Frontier Ruckus will be playing at Musica next weekend. I already seen them at Kent Stage awhile back, but I'd love to see them again. Nothing like live folk music and hearing Matthew Milia's endless stream of great lyrics.

I think I might watch The Royal Tenenbaums later.

Autoclave

"And I am this great, unstable mass of blood and foam
And no emotion that’s worth having could call my heart its home
My heart’s an autoclave"

I left my phone at home today, but strangely it felt the same as if I had it. Time was on slow motion all day till I came home, now it moves too fast. Funny how that works, eh? I don't really know what to do with myself anymore, so when all the 9 hours of free though are going on, I come to the conclusion that I don't want to do anything. All this nothing is getting me somewhere though. I keep saving and saving up money. Hearing about one of my friends getting a job that pays 13.25 an hour to sell knives made me feel a little hopeful at finding a job when I move. I guess the worst thing on my mind has been not being able to find a job that pays enough to sustain living. Another thing on my mind is recently one of the employees at my work ended up working for over 20 hours straight, without sleep or leaving work. He smiled...he was okay with this, okay with the cycle...as many are I'm sure. It's probably no big deal but it put me into one of those downward spirals of thinking "the meaning of life" over and over paired up with him being so happy with all his overtime. I wanted to kill myself just thinking about it. Now that that's all over with, I guess I'm feeling stable again. I was supposed to get a record today, but it never came.. Damn USPS! I'll also be selling my record player on craigslist for $40. Hopefully someone ends up buying it, because I really need another one. I need something for usb recording...I need a Fender Jazzmaster. I need a new mic to record from my guitar amp. I need ALL of my guitars to be adjusted, necks bent. I NEED!!!!

And also, a show sometime soon would be nice...but after checking 4 or 5 venues I found nothing.



I had this dream weeks ago...I woke up and looked outside my studio apartment and everything was bright and beautiful. I was living above a coffee shop in a very historic area of an unknown city. There were people riding bikes around, someone playing acoustic guitar outside, an oceans in the distance.... I guess this was my escape from the cold lifelessness that is in Ohio right now.

Negative Internet

So, I'm actually surprised that my internet is working. This is kinda ruining the whole "blog experience" and turning it into a "I'll either complain or say I'll post later" blog. So guess what, I'm posting RIGHT NOW. This is my post and it is filled with text, useless information and some more text. It has a picture in it too. See it? It's a tiny turtle I rescued one day while mowing the lawn last year. He's the best pet turtle ever. Very loyal, easy to take care of, quiet. Everyone should have a pet turtle!

Maybe my blog is too personal, too honest, too depressing at times....but honestly, I need a mental health day. I need a mental health week, month, year. So I'm doing the best I can right now to retain stability, and that is to distance myself.



This is around the time when I listen to a lot of Kataonia. Depressing metal for the win. Off the new album, even though I like the older stuff more.

Stray Updates

This photo explain it all.
My internet is back for the moment, blasting my Place to Bury Strangers vinyl till my head explodes. (the album is Exploding Head)


I suggest anyone who loves music to buy a record player. Sure, they can be a hassle sometimes when it ends up being warped or some odd defect from being pressed wrong, like skipping or heavy crackles, but it really changes the way you listen to music. Everything pops out so crisp. The highs are higher, the lows are lower. Everything is how it should really sound. Plus you can listen to older records. I might play some of my parents Pink Floyd later. That's always nice.

So much stuff, so little time

So I'll cut it short.

Friday-
We ended up waking to something quite joyful, or not at all. My cat was sitting on our front porch with a hole in its back. We suspected that our horse accidentally stepped on it. I was pretty scared for it because the last cat that got stepped on we couldn't save, also this was one of my favorite cats. Luckily none of its organs were crushed, but it did end up breaking its pelvis. It should be pretty healed after a month so we have to keep it caged up for awhile. What a relief hearing that was.

Saturday-
I got my electric start put in my car. I didn't get to work. This saddens me so much, because all I want to do with my life is work and rot away. I was asked to come in though. I almost had tears of joy when I had to tell them "sorry...I can't come in...my electric start is being put in my car that day and it will take hours to do."

Towards the end of the day my heavy depression started to kick in when I thought to myself how Sunday will just be me waiting to go in and work another full work. I ended up driving down to Square Records in Akron when one of my friends from around the area asked to do something that night. I dragged him along to my record store adventure, where I ended up buying the new Explosions In the Sky record for some inspiration. I got really thirsty so we headed off to a local coffee shop to get a vanilla latte where we just so happen to come across an open mic poetry event. My friend also had his notebook with him so he ended up reading some of his stuff to the crowd. I give him props for that...I would never be able to read any of my stuff in front of anyone.

When we got back we were in the an mood so we ended up drinking and recording music, which suprisingly was a very good combination.

Sunday- (rest rest rest rest)

Today-
All I could think of today was how much I dislike philistines, how much these repetitive drone tasks are taking a toll on my mind and the whole "meaning of life" resonating every second I pull the lever, lift a box, put in ink, repeat. By the end up the day I felt pretty fried as I kept being reminded about how great overtime and extra money is.

Mogutova- Not From Anyone Else (2011)

Your Debut Album

1 - Go to http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Special:Random
The first random Wikipedia article you get is the name of your band.

2 - Go to Random quotations: http://www.quotationspage.com/random.php3
The last four words of the very last quote of the page is the title of your first album.

If you want to do this again, you'll hit refresh to generate new quotes, because clicking the quotes link again will just give you the same quotes over and over again.

3 - Go to flickr's "explore the last seven days" http://www.flickr.com/explore/interesting/7days/
Third picture, no matter what it is, will be your album cover.

Put it all together, that's your debut album.

When I first went to the random wikipedia article I got "wikimedia error". What a great band name, right?....

I hope people buy my album.

Rambles

For some reason I'm feeling really creative today, or at least for the time being. I keep thinking back to when I went to vocational school and had hours in my graphics class to just photoshop, do web design and learn at my own will. Sure, I had to do tests and project and such, but for the most part it was up to me. I don't really have anywhere I'm going with this, but it was nice to have hours to spend on being artsy. I might have to wait till this weekend to do anything though. Maybe short film, photography, music? I don't want to waste this weekend away just playing Halo Reach all day. It would still be nice if I could create right now though, while my brain juices are flowing and I'm still composed.

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Titleless

There's no time to write what I want right now, as I'm being watched and expected to gaze into my machine for the next few hours, as if it's some entertaining television program. I kinda want...to change what I had here last. So now I changed it! No point in making posts about making future posts. So, instead..I'm going to talk about the present to fill up some space. I am drinking a cranberry Mikes Hard Lemonade. I don't usually drink hard l emonade but I found a liking to it tonight. I feel my mind rotting away more and more everyday now...I just want to be bored, free, calm. The end.

Frustrations of an aspiring blogger

1.) No subscribers
2.) Restricted blogging times
3.) Brain dead times when blog time is available.
4.) Having Time Warner Cable (Having Time Warner means horrible internet, even when running at its "best")

For awhile now I've been actually thinking about making a new youtube channel, since my old one is dedicated to music videos and bullshit short film. Also in the midst of this idea, to maybe invest in a better camera microphone to get rid of that annoying static sound the wind makes.

I'm actually not even sure this will post.

I really want to blog...but until I have more time to do so and my internet is back to working at "maybe acceptable but still below average" speeds.

A Clip

Just a few days ago we got a new HP Photosmart printer to replace the one we've been using for the past 7 or 8 years or so (I think it was time). I'm thinking it could really help me for building a photography portfolio that might help me get a job in it. Either way, I love being able to have physical copy of the photos I take over just digital. It actually looks better printed, I'd say. I kinda want to have a photo of someone or something and just keep taking photos of people holding it and it being in random places, and each time print the most recent, almost like infinite regression with photos. I think it might have some neat symbolism if done correctly.

Bloggerdroid!

I guess my Android is really screwing up. It posted this a few days ago..

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